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Hey All,
Christmas was nice. I mean I got what I wanted and it was fun. But I was kind of depressed. Because it just didn't have the feel of christmas. Maybe it was because of all the fighting and rush to do everything unlike most years when whe slow down and actually enjoyed the season. So I don't want to say christmas sucked because there could have been alot more wrong then not "feeling the season". I mean getting colin was great but he kinda changed stuff around. Maybe next year will be better.
My dog Jake is very...how should I put this...crazy. He is four years old and is extremly cute! But-he has a problem. He was never schooled. So now when he sees people even if he knows who they are he gets EXTREMLY excited and starts hurting people knocking over things and barking uncontrolably. And he gets his worst around babies. And now my sister has had her baby, colin. I don't know what we are going to do. She spent like half of christmas eve night crying because she was scared jake was going to hurt colin. My mom and sister (nicole) both want to keep him. And they say he'll get used to him but... I don't know. I love my nephew much more than a stupid dog. And if that stupid dog has a chance to hurt my nephew I don't want him.
Okay well I don't have much to say. So in the lovely words of my sisters, peace out ::scuba diver pose::
Ally

Oh my gosh Jolene why arn't you online when I REALLY want to talk to you!!! lol.
I just got my exam grades because I have not been home for like 3 days (thanks to little baby colin!) and I just got my exam grades and I got a 83 on watson's exam!!!!! isn't that just craziness!?!?!?!?! AND I got a 80 on Carrington ( Which you probably got a 90 on because you are so damn smart!!!). I am so happy everyone! I got a 100 on my math exam, and 83 in bio a 90 in english a 90 in life management a 90 on new testament a 80 on spanish and a 87 in history!!! I DIDN'T FAIL ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!! I am so like relieved because I know I did okay on everything and there is now nothing to worry about!
I am having the best vacation ( although I miss my friends). My sister had her baby. His name is colin he is 10 pounds four onces and is 21 inches long. I slept over at my sisters last night to help out. I got ( really) about 3/4 hours of sleep. I then woke up that morning around eight to start baking at 9-10 in the morning! and I didn't stop to 11 at night!! MY FEET HURT!!!! I wish I knew how to put colins picture on here but I only know how to do pics for the internet. But let me assure you all that he is the cutest baby I have EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER SEEN!!!!!!!!
I can't wait for christmas. Although it does not feel like christmas at all. Mostly because I don't feel people being nice like no matter what. And thats what I usually feel around christmas time. Instead I feel people are being more mean. I don't know why. Jolene got me the cutest things for christmas I love them. She got me a white boat shirt and 4 pairs of toe socks. I felt bad because I didn't feel like I got her alot. I didn't have much money this year and I spent as much as I could.
Sorry 2 readers for jumping around to different things but I am so like all over the place today. I really love my nephew. I know I can't stop talking about him but I really just love him so much. Its strange to really find something that you love unconditionally. I mean I have my other family but that all comes so naturally. This one just like popped up and I will stay up to 3 in the morning walking around the room and changing diapers. I just look into his face and its just so cute. But the thing I really really love most. Is seeing colin with Doug. Because colin is the spitting image of doug. Also because Doug is so nervous. This is the first time he is really around a baby he didn't have an younger sisters like sara. So he doesn't know what to do and he gets worried over every little cry. But its just the way he holds and treats colin that I love. Its all just so full of gentelness.
Well I must be going!
lots of love
(aunt) ally

Wow.... its actually getting cold in florida. Strange I mean its not cold enough to snow. But this is like the lowest so far all year. I am loving it :) Well my life is really busy especially this weekend. Both my sisters came home and I am studying for exams and its really hard in a house with so many people and stuff. Well I am going to go. Sorry this is so short. Later my two readers.
Al

hey
Well not much has been gonig on in my life. Today I hung up christmas lights and it felt like 20 degrees below zero. But it was actually only like 60 degrees. ( You can't blame me I live in florida so its like 90 degrees like the whole year except for a half a month) Anyways the house looks really good.
I had to dress my sister all up to get her to come out and see it. It was so funny. Because we were out in the yard messing around and I was trying to keep her outside and we fell on the ground. And as we were getting back up doug came up to us and was like, what are you doing? And me and nicole both screamed because it was night time and we didn't even see him. It scared the shit out of me.
I talked to natalie on the phone for like and hour and a half. But she had to go and was supposed to call me back but never did. Its alright though. I guess my sisters have some kind of joke going on about how funny they each are. I am really excited because my sister is dialated at 2 so she could be having the baby really soon!! yay.
Uh what else to write? Oh a girl at my school broke up with her boyfriend. I felt really bad for her because she was crying like every time she saw him. It really reminded me of nicole. And in life management she was like I have not ate for two days. And everyone was like you have to eat. And I told her don't eat till you are ready because I remember doing the same thing for nici. You can't force yourself. But later I was thinking about her and I felt realy bad for her. Because I thought of how much nicole went through and she had 4 sisters to help her. But this girl only has and older brother. So I felt really horrible and thought about how hard this must be for her.
Well I am going to be going. Because I am getting tired. Later my one reader.

Sometimes I get really depressed. I try not to show it though because I don't want people to worry about me. But I just get sad. Because I just feel like there is no one in my life right now that I have a special connection with, like someone I can actually talk to and not have to worry about what I said. I see people who have like boyfriends/girlfriends, and then people who have like these best friends and then other people like my sister Jessica and Nicole that are like live in their own little world just having fun.
And when I see those things I can't help but be jealous of them. Because I want that feeling too. That feeling of importance to know that someone else needs you. And I know I shouldn't be saying this because I do have people that love me.But lately it just hasn't felt like I have.
It seems like I can't get happy. I mean I laugh and smile a bit but not as much as usual. And the more I try to be happy the less I am happy. I don't know whats wrong with me. And some other things are going on inside me that I don't really want to say but they make me worried. And I might have to see a doctor. Today after school, my sister and I were waiting for my mom and we were actually having a good time. And then she kept making comments about this mole I have and I am really insecure about it and it just made me mad. So I didn't want to talk to her. And it just made me mad because we were having a perfectly good time until that. I think I've realized a problem about myself. I am a really insecure person. I've really changed since starting high school. I am too scared to do anything because I am scared of making a fool out of myself.
I used to be known as the "outgoing" one of the family. And my dad still says that about me, but the truth is, is I'm not anymore. I'm not the first one to say hello or go up and buy my sister an ice cream. Instead I am thinking about what will that person think of me if I do this or that. I think the reason why I started noticing this about myself is because of this book a seperate peace that I am reading for my english class. I remind myself alot of Gene. Only I don't have a Finny. And I need a Finny I guess you could say or a best friend is what I mean.
Although I do have really good friends like Natilie and Jolene. But its so hard to be best friends with them because I don't get to see them much. Jolene leaves pretty far away from me and I don't have any classes with Natilie. I used to know who I was and what I wanted to be. But now I don't know who I am and its really hard. Because if I don't know who I am how or other people going to know who I am and how am I ever going to have the friends I really want?